Empowered YOUth by Michael Eisen

Author:Michael Eisen
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: ebook, book
Publisher: Hay House
Published: 2012-07-11T00:00:00+00:00

During this time, my love for sports blossomed even more, and at McGill there was always an opportunity to play. They had intramural teams for everything, and the facilities I had access to were what I’d dreamed of all through high school. I enrolled in as many activities as possible: flag football, basketball, soccer, and inner-tube water polo. I’d also swim and work out in the gym. It was all so much fun, and everybody kept saying that in the first year your grades don’t matter, so I bought into that belief and focused on having a blast.

Life was a big party. Every night of the week, everyone would go to a bar or club. At the time I was 18, the legal drinking age in Quebec, and since my stomach was now feeling much better because I wasn’t stressed, I reasoned that I had a lot of catching up to do. For the first time in a while, I was relatively healthy. And so I drank. Alcohol became a crutch that I used to transform myself into the person I wanted to be. It was as if every time I drank, I was able to forget about all those silly worries and beliefs that were holding me back.

This was the year that my experience with girls began to change as well. Throughout high school, I had the tendency to fall in love way too easily. On some level I believe I was longing for someone to care for me in return. I was in love with wanting to be loved. There were countless times that I’d fall for girls who were my friends. I had these deep feelings but, for the most part, I wasn’t brave enough to tell them how I felt.

As high school progressed and these feelings got stronger, I decided I could no longer hold them in anymore. From that point on, I decided to express my love anytime I felt it. Unfortunately for me, it was never reciprocated. Most of these girls didn’t see me as more than just a friend. As a result, I’d already had my heart broken many times when I arrived on campus. But once I was there, I started to question whether I really wanted to feel this way at all. I thought, If this is what love feels like, then I don’t want any part of it. I began to subscribe to what many of my guy friends were doing at the time—basing relationships with girls purely on the physical connection and not allowing emotions to get involved.

I found that through drinking and partying I was able to close off my emotions quite easily. Alcohol also made me feel as though I had nothing to lose and gave me the courage to talk to anyone. As a result, I met a lot of new girls and had many new experiences. It was fun at the time, but it all caught up with me eventually, and then I had four years of unprocessed emotions to work through as a result.

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